Sometimes we dont need much to feel happier. I used to grab some food and sit like a coach potato just watching something on TV or playing games. Whatever I thought would be fun, and felt happy that I could do whatever I wanted to do.
That was cool enough to back some beer on weekends or get tipsy after a couple of scotch shots. No, I mean it. Some people say it is not really good for your health to eat junk food and drink too much beer, but I dont think so. I think my life is too short to make decisions upon such statements. It is pretty silly to think that extra five minutes of your life that you took from eating healthier things and leading a no-drink mode of life will help you feel happier. No way.
I'm just me. I'm an average man. You would never call me hot or whatever when you see me on the street. You would never call me handsome when you see my face. You would never call me brilliant and for sure would never call me outstanding. But I do what I want to do in my life and that makes me happy.
But that is how things run now. Before I set my life as I described I had been obsessed about myself, the way I looked and the way people had seen me.
The thought that people treat you the way you look used to mislead me a lot in my 20th. I thought that women would like me more if I was well-established in my carrier in my 30th. And I was still hopeful to find my second half in my 40th. But later, in my 50th, I realized that the common notion of human happiness is a fake. It means nothing when it comes to individual life. And I could prove it with my own life.
I'm quite stout, no, really, the one of about 270 lbs and keep on gaining more. But you know what? It doesnt matter in my life. I'm a school teacher, but I feel that I dont have to be a role model for my students. They like me just as I am and that makes me happy. I used to do some workout before, but later gave up. What for should I do that? For me, you might say. I do much more pleasant things for myself, that is my reply to everything that you are going to say.
I even used to take some weight loss pills some time ago, and it really helped me to lose some weight. But that daily routine of getting addicted to that weird schedule of a weight-loser was of less appeal than going to Irish pub now and again and being involved in what I call real life.
I'm not going to give you advice, no, that isnt my job here. I just want to say that probably not everyone can be perfect or something. Or maybe not everyone can be average, like a typical model of a typical human being. I'm who I am and I'm not sure that I want to change my life. I'm a pessimist. But I'm a happy pessimist.
Michael, 61
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