Nobody wants to be discriminated. We fight against racism; struggle for the equal rights of men and women; learn to sympathize with the victims of HIV. We try to be humanistic in the fundamental things, forgetting, at the same time, to show humanism in smaller, everyday stuff. Diseases, which can be seen on the skin surface, are an example of such ferial things.
Herpes belongs to the illnesses, which are sometimes impossible to hide. They say that about 80% of all the people are infected with the virus causing herpes outbreaks. However, all of us tend to avoid persons with the obvious signs of this disease; even those, who suffer from herpes themselves, turn away with disgust, or fear, perhaps.
Of course, I know that herpes is a contagious disease, which can easily be transmitted to the other people. When I have its active outbreaks, I do my best not to touch anybody or contact with people in any way. However, it always seems so sad, so bitter, so unfair to be an outcast.
I believe Im not the only one, who is embarrassed and even ashamed of suffering from those ugly blisters. I am sure I didnt do anything wrong to deserve this; but I often read a cruel question in the eyes of the passers-by, Oh boy, where did you get this stuff?
I have suffered from herpes for many years, but I never got used to it. I always experience depression and reluctance to communicate with people during disease recurrences. However, recently I have found the method how to cope with herpes. I do it my own way.
People say that it is necessary to change the environment in order to forget about problems, misfortunes, and grief. Some of my friends use this advice and state it proves to be effective. They either go somewhere, travel and meet new people, or stay at home reading books, taking care of their pets. Some of them find relief in religion; others begin feeling better growing plants.
Now I also have a hobby, which helps me avoid people and the whole world during herpes outbreaks. I take some days off from work, stay at home and paint. Of course, Im not much of an artist, but it seems to me I make some progress. I have already painted several pictures. Nobody has seen them, and I strongly doubt anyone ever will, but the process of painting a kind of soothes my nerves, makes me forget about everything. I have found the way to cope with herpes, thats what really matters.
I especially like the picture I made during the latest outbreak of the disease. I painted it on the kitchen wallpapers. Several lonely nights, much coffee, and the complete silence were my only company. Its not a masterpiece, but I made it with my soul. You are the first to see it. Dont judge me too strictly painting is just the way to escape from my problems.
I wish everybody in trouble to be able to find the means to calm down, relax, and feel better.
Fighter
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